WHO WANTS TO GO TO A RAVE?

it's supposed to be pretty good. and only $8 advance.

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complicated

i did not have any weekends. it was all work work work. and when i thought i had a free day yesterday, it turned out i had to study AND i had to work. what do i have to do to get a free day around here?



yesterday me and sasha were trying to figure out her bday for a long time. didn't really solve anything, but it has moved to friday. only now i am looking at the weather for friday and it says rain....

@музыка: darkrave-dj wrath

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i hate learning things on photoshop and image ready. it takes forever.

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im the memory of kurt cobain...

12 years since his death is today. now who remembers our obsession with nirvana and kurt? weren't those great days?

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ta-dam!

it took me an hour to find and figure this out, which in the end turned out to be one-minute's work.

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survey time

Part 1 -- The Basics

What's your name? ::: Julia

Birthplace ::: Minsk

Age ::: 17

Age you act ::: my age mostly

Current location ::: Toronto

Eye color ::: ugh...greenish brown, there's even some yellow in there

Hair color ::: blond (well, not naturally)

Right, lefty or ambidextrous? ::: right

Zodiac sign? ::: cancer

Height? ::: 5'7 or 5'8 i am never sure of my hight or wieght



Part 2 -- Describe...

Your hair ::: dyed blond, my roots are showing now, should dye it again soon

Your fears ::: not being able to breathe

Your perfect room ::: colourfull, it would probably ostly consist of things from ikea since they have lots of coloured furniture

What you practically do in a day ::: go to school, at home i usually do homework, otherwise i am not home. at nights me and sasha(usually) go for a smoke. weekends are either nice and quiet or spent drinking or doing drugs. somtimes i get out and go to places if something good comes up.



What is/are...

Words you overuse ::: little words like yea and well, but generally i don't know, tell me if there are any

Your first thought when you wake up ::: lately it's been "when am i going to get enough sleep already" because i've been waking up before 7 to do things for school

Your greatest accomplishment ::: i wish i could say getting into university but that is still unknown so i'll just say finally meeting more different people

Something you want to do ::: travel, in the summer i really wanna go to montreal *crosses fingers*



Part 4 -- This or that

Pepsi or Coke ::: coke

McDonald's or Burger King ::: don't see much of a difference

Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera ::: christina, at least she has a voice

Chocolate or vanilla ::: chocolate

Adidas or Nike ::: adidas

Black or white ::: black

Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) ::: bills, they are always worth more

Burgers or hot dogs ::: i like both

Egypt or France ::: france, just to enjoy all the extravagant and glamourous thing there

Rock or rap ::: rock



Part 5 -- Do you...

Smoke ::: yup

Cuss ::: yes

Sing well ::: haha, just listen to me singing tatu on that tape

Sing in the shower ::: sometimes

Talk to yourself --a lot-- ::: somtimes, helps to understand things more

Believe in yourself ::: yes

Like taking these longass survey ::: yup

Play an instrument ::: i wish

Want to go to college? ::: yes, see what that life there is all about

Want to get married? ::: yea, probably some time in the future

Want to have children? ::: yes, i like kids

Think you're a health freak? ::: not at all, with all the unhealthy things i do

Get along with your parents ::: yes, usually do

Get along with your siblings? ::: yes, considering i dont have any

Think you're popular ::: no, but the circle of people i know grew a big amount in the past year



Part 6 -- In the past months have you..

Gone out of province ::: nope, im always stuck here

Drank alchohol ::: oh, a big amount of it

Smoked ::: months? i smoked today

Gotten high ::: yes, Marija's four days ago (the jungle beat of the city is always on that roof)

Done any drugs ::: E a week and a half ago @ the Prodigy concert.

Eaten an entire box of oreos ::: no, wouldnt that be a bit too much?

[B]Been on stage ::: no

Gone skinny dipping ::: no

Been dumped ::: how long is months? because that was was more than half a year ago

Dyed your hair ::: yes

Stolen anything ::: suprisingly, i don't think so. i've been good this year



Part 7 -- The Last...

Last dream ::: let's see...we(me, sofi, maria, sasha) went to some rave and it was a square building. inside there were many rooms for dancing and in each there were a bunch of people. it turned out later that the rooms were jail cells. somwhere in the middle of the rave my living was located, i don't know why. andrei and vadim also appeared there. then vadim told me he liked me and then he hugged me and then we ended up making out for a bit. and for the rest of the dream i was with him....this just confirms that i am resorted to dream about the only guys left around me. the next thing you know i'll be dreaming about pedro or anton(or wait, will that be a nightmare?)

Last nightmare ::: don't know

Car ride ::: today to the library. i was at the place where the explosion of tim hortons happened.

Last time you cried ::: a month or two ago

Last movie seen ::: night watch

Last movie rented ::: fight club

Last book read ::: fight club

Last word said ::: "i dont know" to my dad

Last curse word said ::: заебал или пошел на хуй someting along those lines, i met anar, anton and yarik at the park today

Last time you laughed ::: at anar....or was it yaroslav?

Last phone call ::: to anton to tell him sasha's #

Last CD played ::: наутилус пампилиус

Last song you listened to ::: i am listening to russian techno right now-DJ Грув

Last annoyance ::: aparently my tv(in my room) only plays 13 channels

Last IM ::: i havent been on msn today

Last weird encounter ::: actually chilling with anton, anar and yarik. confirmed that nothing at all changed

Last person you hugged ::: sasha

Last person you yelled at ::: sofi, at the Prodigy concert (the speakers were loud)

Last time you wore a skirt ::: tuesday, for the primerica thing(are you the one?)

Last time you've been evil ::: truly evil? i dont think that happened for a while

Last time you were Sarcastic? ::: it is in my nature to be sarcastic, i do not think you can talk to me for 10 min and not hear sarcasm from me

Last time you fought with your parents ::: i dont really fight with them, its just bickering

Last time you wished upon a star ::: actually not so long ago

Played Truth or Dare ::: a while ago

Spent quality time alone ::: yesterday, i actually read war and peace! a whole 40 pgs, not thats a big accoplishment since i usually read 5 pgs tops in a day, if i read it at all

@музыка: DJ Грув-встреча

@настроение: not bad

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деньги правят миром

мы вчера с сашей оба брата пересмотрели. точнее я пересматривала, саша в первый раз видел. а еще русским себя называет и на меня еще что-то гонит. а фильмы, конечно же, классные. мне нравится, что русские снимают по-настоящему. там в кино обычные люди похожи на обычных людей, а не то что в голливуде. у них даже обстановка, где все происходит, слишком прилизанная. у нас все как-то по своему. может просто потому что ближе к душе, ведь все же русское, своё.



а теперь по совсем другое теме, мне сегодня работать нужно. и утром и вечером короче, субботы у меня больше не существует. придется привыкать.

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lunchtime

and just like that, it seems like there has never been any winter. everyone's out at lunch and we're back on the benches. yesterday, we were playing hacky sack for the first time ever with andrei, pedro and vadim. it was really fun even though we weren't exactly playing by the rules(no hands, sofi). now it's going to be so hard to go back to school after lunch when you can just stay outside, sit and smoke the whole afternoon. i've been waiting for these days for such a long time...

@музыка: ATB-Marrakech

@настроение:

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look into the mirror glass image

i am finally done with my logs. i've been locked up in my house the whole day yesterday, i only had two smoke breaks the whole day. even my parents were suprised i was doing homework so much.

now i get to move on to studying for my tests. geography should be fun. all that memorizing.



on the other hand, i think spring is finally here(dont wanna jinx it). it is very nice outside. not too warm but sunny so its really good. things are looking up. but that's just my usual sunday afternoon attitude. only when all the work will be over, i will be happy. can't wait for wednesday.



oh and i think i'm having the same syndrome as sofi. a couple of days ago i had a dream that i was jonathon's girlfriend. but i did not know that and he was waiting for me and then he kissed me and i was just like "oh, i guess we're together. that's weird."

where are all the hot boys?



btw, does anyone know when they are changing the time? my mom was all worried today that they didn't change it.

@музыка: корни-25 этаж

@настроение: солнечное

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I'm a firestarter, a wicked firestarter

i'm gonna send you to outer space

to find another race...

Out of Space-Prodigy



the concert was really great. it was so nice because it was such a mix between a rave and an actual concert. at some point we were dancing, then we were jumping with everyone else, then we could relax for a bit. and prodigy played all of the songs i wanted to hear-firestarter, poison, out of space. it was also really great being there on E, me and sofi talked through the whole oppening act. and like i said, all the people were older than us there. i'd say most of them were over 20. but no kids, suprisingly. but the crowd was really nice and not so pushy as it usually is. and the lights were really nice, especially the ones that blink. the only bad part about it was standing outside in the cold for like an hour. everybody in the line was freezing their asses off. and there were even some crazy people in tshirts! but otherwise, i'd say this was the best concert i've been to so far. too bad it was over so soon

and i barely got to see liam

@музыка: prodigy-voodoo people

@настроение: pretty good

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мозгоёб

неужели все действительно так зациклились на одном? это наверное из-за того, что это последний год школы. и нужно решать насчет будещего, а планов конечно же ни у кого нету. вот я тоже в последнее время думала, может мне действительно на экономику пойти? психология это просто увлечение, а не профессия. тем более, я давно хотела работать в большом офисе с людьми. только один недостаток в этом есть. здесь в офисах все по одному работают, их даже стенками разделяют и садят по углам что-бы друг другу не мешали. такое будущее меня не очень привлекает. хотя, меня не привлекает жизнь в канаде вообще. как вы думаете, где хорошо жить? а то все больше и больше разговоров про канаду возникает и ничего оссобенно хорошего я не слышала. я понимаю, что здесь много возможностей, но, всегда есть это долбанное "но".



например в беларусии ситуация нааамного хуже. у нас выборы были, лукашенко победил с 82%. как будто могло быть по другому. и опозиция еще что-то хочет сделать насчет этого, они какой-то митинг пытались устроить. они даже смогли горстку оптимистов собрать на площади. и что эти люди пытаются докозать? что они могут что-то изменить? не смешите меня, эта страна, если ее так можно назвать, катиться только вниз. сплошная диктатура и не избежать её до конца жизни нашего так называемого "батьки". он держит всех в железном кольце замаскированным в демократию. и народ ничего не будет делать так как они знают, что все это неизбежно. да и не могут они нифига сделать. слишком прибитый народ живет в беларусии....



вот ОН, во всей красе.

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everytime i turn, you're all i see

well, i guess today is the last day of march break. overall, i would say it was quiet nice. we went to york and ryerson, went over to natalie's and drank. pretty much accomplished everything i wanted to. now back to school. back to working. it's not that bad. besides, the best is still to come(prodigy). and school will be over soon too so everything is not as bad as i thought. now if only my personal life was a bit better, things would be great. but thats wishing a bit too much, isnt it? i can't have everything.

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mmm....summer.....

this is where i want to be right now

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Закрытая запись, не предназначенная для публичного просмотра

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я улетела далеко и не скоро вернусь

где все русские парни? если на одну девченку в торонто приходится по 6 пацанов, как саша говорит, то где они? куда они все делись? почему остались лишь придурки? или это просто нам не судьба встретить кого-то нормального? наверное, нет. может в следущем году будет кто-то в универе. в райерсоне мы видели двух русских девченок и парня. они на меня так странно посмотрели когда я у них попросила сигарету. но пацан был ничего так что следущий год должен быть лучше. все наши пацаны остаются в школе и мы будем совсем одни. может я наконец найду кого-нибудь получше саши или димы. они конечно ничего, так просто по двору с ними таскаться можно. но это не то все же. хочется чего-то лучше, выше, интересней. такое существует? не знаю, надеюсь, что да. конечно, нужно еще найте работу. ведь для таких людей должен быть свой спецефический стиль жизни. поэтому пока и приходится с такими же как и я водиться. выход из этой ситуации пока сложно найти. ведь всегда легче общяться с такими же людьми как и ты сам. вот поэтому мы все вместе и собрались.

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мы смотрели Ночной Дозор в кино сегодня. до канады аж дошло, здесь его теперь показывает. конечно же, на больше экране это еще больше впечатляет. и субтиры главное не мешают фильму. они только коментарий переви на англ. а так все вроде осталось.



после фильма я поняла что меня все здесь заебало. люди, дома, ветер, зима, этот город, абсолютно все заебало. пора что-то менять. только вот что и на что менять? тем более я все равно сама ничего не смогу поменять. все в руках фортуны. пока мне хочется выпить мартини(то, которое мне саша давал, оно такое вкусное было, ммм....) и забить. может когда теплее станет, будет лучше. у меня от погоды многое зависит.



...я до сих пор тебя не нашла....

@музыка: земфира-искала тебя

@настроение: пасмурное

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pretty boy

я теперь буду его любить так как больше некого. он был в ночном и дневном дозоре(где они посмели его убить, гады) и в 9 роте, где я даже не знала, что он снимался до сегодняшнего дня. и я оба фильма смотрела.



ЗЫ в ночном дозоре он был костей, а в 9 роте воробьем, если кто не знает.

@музыка: наше радио-земфира

@настроение: скукота

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buckley's

has anyone ever tasted buckley's? you know how they say it tastes afwul and it works? well it tastes more than just awful. that thing is disgusting. it smells like mould and it tastes even worse. and i have to drink it. grrrr.

now we'll see if it works.

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i think my life is passing me by...

i can actually feel the march break creeping up slowly. it actually starts in 2 min, not that it matters for me. but this whole time i was home i expected to go to school, so i didn't exactly feel like march break was here. but now it truly is. yay?



you would think sitting at home means nothing is happening but actually i got all the updates and talked to all the people i need to talk to. it was anton's bday this week, good thing anar told me. i think anton was very suprised i called him and wished him a happy bday. and then zeky was all oh we should drink, why don't you pitch in and get everybody together. sounds like fun, only i'm sick so there is no way i am even trying to organize this. i hope i can go to York tomorrow because i wanted to go there for about a month already and this sickness is not making anything better.

but somehow, life seems to be on the brighter side.

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remember me

well well, i am made a prisoner in my own house. another day of this....should i go kill myself now or later? i have missed three days of school by now. thank god these are the last days before the break so we dont do much. still, i need my art paper! AND i wanted to do my test, but no, aparently not. so once again i am stuck here. wat shall i do tomorrow? repeat today? play cards and solve crossword puzzles? sounds like fun.



when is this going to be over?