so i just came back from drinking. i said a lot of shit i shouldn't have but it's nothing you couldn't have figured out by yourself. im still a bit buzzed from everything. that damn laundry room holds too many memories now. so many boys, so little time. i get every single one of them. well, the ones that i want i always get. but not in a real way. they're just there with me for one night and that's it. they never stay. but then again, who did i want lately? only nikita, and im pretty much over that. everyone else, i do it just out of drunkness or because i have got nothing better to do. maybe if i did have something to do, i wouldnt do anything with zek or anyone else and actually focus on somthing important. maybe i wouldnt smoke or drink or do drugs. then i would be a proper clean girl who doesnt let random guys make out with her.
ha ha. i laugh at that thought. like that's ever happening. me, clean and proper? please, that is so not happening....maybe that should be my new years resolution. i'll think about that